MY GENESYS DIARY: PART I – MEANINGFUL FRIENDSHIPS
I decided to start this diary on impulse and a…
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO “KNOW YOUR WORTH” by KHALID & DISCLOSURE
Hey faves! If I told you that I was in beauty pageant and I didn’t make it to the first five would you believe? A whole me! A spec! Well that’s because it was the pageant for MISS BIG, BOLD & BEAUTIFUL. Some of you might be wondering why i contested, some of you might be wondering why I didn’t win and that’s the Lipton of the tea I’d be serving today, the hot water is the confidence part that I’m dragging into this whole gist, like what concerns confidence and me not winning even if it’s the 5th position.
I didn’t want to get on that stage even with all the promises of a good PPA (place of primary assignment) if I come at most 3rd. My problem wasn’t that I had stage fright but I’ve never had a reason to catwalk on a stage, to dance on a stage or even stand with one leg pushed out in front of the other all in the name of “beauty queen pose”. The people in my platoon were rooting for me, the hype during rehearsals, the hype on parade ground, I won’t lie it was boosting my self confidence. During choreography rehearsal (yes, that’s why Mayorkun’s Up to Something” would always taunt me) I would look at my competitors and diss them in my head, they were all beautiful but I wasn’t going to let anyone else win this.
The night of the pageantry, I took in multiple quick breaths and when I heard “platoon 1”, I held my head up high like a queen that I am and strutted that stage, giving the Queen of England wave and smiling so hard, I passed where I was meant to pose. With every new segment of the pageantry, I stopped hearing my platoon people cheer me up and that was when I started to hear myself clap for myself. I gave mental accolades and that made me feel the urge to do better when it got to the dancing part of the pageantry. I gbese-d so good that days later the compliments were “you should have won, you danced so well”, “so you can dance eh”. Well, in my defense, the only reason I didn’t win was because I wasn’t “big” enough and that was fair for me.
All I’m trying to say is that, if people won’t hype you up, hype yourself! A healthy amount of self confidence is super good food for your mental health. You have to be confident in yourself first before anyone else.
I’m never going to be in a forced beauty pageantry again lol. The part of the tea you should focus on is the hot water right? Now in the story focus more on how my self confidence did it for me, you can add Milo to your hot water, the Lipton is my own story. Yeah that’s it, that’s the tea.
PS: I deleted the pictures from that day because my make up was too white and somehow I used a black eye pencil gel. Yeah!
I hope this helps boost your confidence. Be your own cheerleader, others would follow!